Tiny Shards of Hope

 I’m someone who can take a tiny snowflake of good news and make it into a snow day. That’s a good thing. As a writer I think I have to take all the good and bright things and cherish them when I can. There are a few things floating around that may give us reason for real celebration. Things for family, work, and home. They may come to pass and they may not. But this time in between is pure hope. Hope for all the things that are possible. All that we are working for may start to slowly unfold. And if they don’t, maybe they will give us the staying power we need to keep striving. Knowing there are more bright shining moments ahead. 


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