Girl Again

 Sometimes life is heartbreaking. And then all of the sudden the clouds part for a moment. We are in a moment where the sun is shining. Charlie is thriving. Ziggy is happy and starting a new chapter soon. Weldon adores them both and now we will have another little girl to grow up with. Another sister. More noise and mess. Another little woman to raise. Weldon adores Charlie. Charlie has taken to her big sister role so well. I tell her all the time how I wanted a little sister. I wanted someone else in the crew. 

I have always loved a full house. My dearest friends and the moms I admire have a mess of kids. I would be the friend that showed up for coffee and sat on the couch watching all of the activity. Charlie and Ziggy grew up surrounded by the big families of my friends and they fell right into the rhythm of it. I always wanted that, and now Rob and I have created a bustling little house. 

The little girls will share a room so that at night I can stand by the door and listen to them chatter quietly to one another. Or disagree. I know there will be both. But I want them to have a relationship. I want them to understand that it takes work and forgiveness and patience to be a sibling. It takes kindness and understanding. 

Charlie and Zig were so close as little kids. But they grew up and apart. But I force family time when I can. Weeknight dinners and movie nights. So that they can remember who they are to one another. 

I think Charlie wants that back. What she had with Zig. So she dotes on Weldon. She paints her pictures and reads her books. She is always ready to play with her sister. She cried when we told her we were pregnant. She knew another friend was on the way. Someone she could pour all of her love into. Another friend that would always be by her side.