Mimi

 Today I let myself be spoiled. Rob is really good at that. Even when he is dealing with a mountain of school and first year teaching and being far from family, etc. He will also hold me up a little today. He will hold me up so I can remember to be with my mama today. She slips a little further underwater each day so I need to hold on while I can. Before she loses her grip on us.

We will all caravan up to see my mom, the kids Mimi. My dad has ordered a boatload of BBQ. We will bring board games to play and sit around making each other laugh and love on my mom. We will show her pictures and she will hold Weldon in her lap. Zig will not leave her side. He will hold her hand and kiss her cheeks. Charlie will watch her Mimi not sure of how to act and eventually fall back into the safety of childhood, running around with Maeve and Dutch, happily lost in play. Heather will turn on that bright light of hers for the afternoon. And when she loses that shine for a moment, we will step away and cry. We will hug our dad and make plans for next week. And then we will go home. 


I will kiss my own babies goodnight and remind them how much Mimi loves them. And then Rob will tuck me into bed and hold me while I cry for a bit. Then I will take a breath. And be so happy that I have memories of my funny, dramatic, smart as a whip mama, to carry with me through my life.

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